(iB): isangBUHAY - turning fully towards this oneLIFE

MOVED...

2007-02-12T18:38:00.000-08:00

GO!
http://isanghamahal.zaadz.com/

Do not be afraid to give your life...
for the final cause
on the Road to 2012

changes, changes, changes...

2007-01-23T20:29:00.000-08:00

dear LIFE

surprises
unexpected surprises
welcomed unexpected surprises
YES
YES
YES
BLESS
BLESS
BLESS
PROGRESS
INNER AND OUTER
(R)EVOLUTION

today, at work
we find out some interrrrressssting
news about shifts and reassignments
and things like that in terms of campus leadership

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wow!
interrrrrresssssting developments
i say...

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hmmmmm....

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breathing
and at awe at how
UNIVERSE
ALIGNMENT
and OPPORTUNITIES
come into being
without much effort
from our part sometimes
actually...

ON ANOTHER NOTE:
a friend will be leaving san diego for a bit
time for self retreat time return to self
healing wholeness stillness time

i support her journey from afar
send her prayers and positivity
each moment, each day to
bring healing energy her way
as she seeks rejuvenation
transformation
inner (r)evolution

dear FRIEND
you have brought such wonderfulness
to me since i've reconnected with you
i hope you know that...

you are journeying
into the Unmanifest Dear One
a twelfth house path
into dreams, imagination, illusion
illumination, enlightenment, transcendence

from afar i watch you
i see you
making the pilgrimage
into the Black Unknown
the Black Moon
the Nothingness
Spacious Emptiness
from which all things Arise

i am selfish and hope
you will return
i wish for your
ultimate awakening
and the heartful
fulfillments of your
deepest aspirations
truly deeply wholly

this is my greatest happiness
this is my greatest happiness
this is my greatest happiness

may we encounter each other
once again in the future
perhaps there in chiapas
or mexico city, or the ancient
pyramids which trace the path of the Sun

may we encounter each other again
as we've done just recently
reconnecting
recognizing
reflecting

me to you
you to me
el otro soy yo
in la kech
namaste
you are my other self

there is nothing more true
in my life than this...

palms together
i bow deeply in your direction

safe travels and safe returns,
:~
jnsa

changes, changes, changes...
on the road to 2012

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we are life without boundaries

2007-01-17T19:59:00.000-08:00

we are life without boundaries
the theme for the upcoming
people of color retreat in the tradition
of plum village communities and thich nhat hanh...
it will be on sept. 6 to 9, 2007

we are life without boundaries
we are boundless bodhisattvas
border crossers
river crossers
from the historical to the ultimate
from the present to the eternal moment
no birth, no death
fearlessness
emptiness
endlessness
no coming
no going

gate gate para gate parasam gate bodhi svaha!

2007-01-17T17:52:00.000-08:00

thank you
blessings

picture source: http://www.richardseah.com/pixs/bali.html

thanks...

2007-01-17T17:35:00.000-08:00

gratitude
thankfulness
heartfulness
openess

for the thought
for the word
for simply sharing
and establishing connection

for the lil' signs
that make the day
A DAY

gratitude
heartfulness
thankfulness

for being you
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(oh no, what's this 'bout!)

some quotes...

2007-01-16T20:13:00.000-08:00

be the LOVE you wish to see in the world

el otro soy yo...

we are the peacemakers we have been waiting for...

it's all about "bumper sticker" quotes
and making them and passing out the love
to other friends in this friendly universe world

a friend sent this text to me
one i read before online but had forgotten about

type in google: living throught he closing of the cycle: a survival guide for the road to 2012

and take a read when you have a long moment
about our current time calendrics system and
the 13 moon mayan dreamspell system

if you believe that our current calendrics is
burdened by karma, history and all its complications
then a way to (r)evolve out of this is to dissolve
this system by creating a new relationship to time

read the text if you are interested
it'll explain it better than what i am attempting here...

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well, so, i'm making an effort
to update and remain better
connected here

and lots has happened since last fall
some having to do with:

1) officially moving in the homebuying adventure
facilitated by onelovetrust and other benevolent factors and conditions

2) beginning year 3 (permanency) at my school site! wooohoooo! i made it thus far?!

3) celebrating with superfriends during the winter solstice (a new tradition in the countdown towards 2012)

4) understanding the energy of 2007 (smiles and laughter)

5) and meeting wonderful friends along the path both (old and new)

6) om sarasvati hring hring hring svaha! peace to lama dawa and the sarasvati bhawan sangha

7) coming HOME, coming HOME, coming HOME

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i want to keep writing
and will...

but after all this self-disclosure here on dear blog

i connect
to send out a prayer
of peacefulness, stillness & fierceness

we are the ones we have been waiting for
YES
YES
YES

LEAP
LEAP
LEAP

in heartfulness,
:~
jnsa
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avalokiteshvara in the philippines...

2007-01-15T13:55:00.000-08:00

http://bigredbuddha.com/content/view/46/48/

dalai lama's next incarnation in the philippines?!?!

i(((sangha)))mahal

may all beings find happiness
may all beings be free
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HAPPY 2007 to you
may heartful encounters
fill you with great trust
and abundance in 2007

may your highest
aspirations
be met with favorable
conditions

may faith
fearlessness
and infinite
compassion
bless each
of your moments

jnsa
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cainer.com

2006-09-03T13:49:00.000-07:00

Your week ahead: How long has it been since you were last touched by an angel? It would seem some deeply benevolent force is now watching over you. This week's harmonious alignment from Venus to Jupiter suggests there's kindness and compassion in the cosmic picture. Somehow, soon, you will be taken further away from a source of stress - and closer to a new reason to feel hopeful. You may be led in a number of ways from force of circumstance, to sudden coincidence to the direct intervention of a helpful, positive person who is clearly determined to ensure that you now finally leave a painful part of your past behind.

signed today

2006-08-28T17:26:00.001-07:00

signed signed signed name away
on loan docs, etc. escrow signing morning
with tentative move in date being september 5th
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as brother, realtor and i were inside the office
there was a box that read " ....title and escrew"
uhhhhh, hope that isn't a sign of things to come :-)
with affiliation with this entity
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thankfulness
breathfulness
happiness
timeliness
ease
yes
release
yes
release
yes
release
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back to school for teachers begins TOMORROW

signed today

2006-08-28T17:26:00.000-07:00

saturn in leo - individuation transformation

2006-08-17T09:19:00.000-07:00

Then we have Saturn in Leo. This represents a process of individuation; the self-identity factor of Leo is gathered and contained in the defined structure of Saturn. The creative factor takes on a form and a means of expression. There is the struggle that many have voluntarily embarked upon of turning lead to gold, that is, recognizing our true inner identity and taking the opportunity to transform ourselves from our past self-images and identities, which we carry around like lead bones. Along the way we need to let go of certain life structures, relationship forms and patterns of interrelating in order to make room for new growth, experience and responsibility. Relationships that fail to jump to more mature levels need to be left behind, or will disappear. This is a psychological process that is an urgent part of the lives of people committed to personal evolution, and who are aware of the collective (Saturn) level as it relates to the individual level (Leo) as well. Every person is responsible for their own psychological process, but there are at this point in history many people prepared and trained to assist others in their individuation. At first the 'sense of self' that emerges may feel strange, cumbersome or heavy, and awareness of our collective plight may feel like a burden. But there is no turning back, and self-awareness soon may develop into a sense of duty.

from planetwaves.net by eric francis

release...summer of 2006

2006-08-16T18:04:00.000-07:00

dear summer of 2006
gratitude for the time
of rest and rejuvenation
beach walks and talks
chicano perk tea and air conditioning and wireless!
can't forget local library down the street as well
kept me cool and within a nice work environment
to move through the summer of saturn return
as well as the summer of home searching
personal finance cleanin' and now
in these last few weeks remaining
hopefully onto a smooth closing
homeowning...

gratitude
for the blessing
of this home
the ideas and imaginations
creations
spaciousness
renewed thinking and possibilities
that this "home" is representing
of manifestation
of the energy necessary
to create from meta to physica
the push
the monkey mind
the determination faith
and courage necessary once
on the border to WILL ahead
towards victory

release summer of 2006
release

gratitude
for the blessings
of friends along the path
who have been there to
maintain the vision
onelovetrust
clearMOON
jksmommy
jadetchr
mr.dove
nobs
diegoinca
pamilya
and all guides
and spirit friends
who have listened and allowed
the dream to become realized
THANK YOU
THANK YOU
THANK YOU

gratitude
to "coincidences"
to auspiciousness
to surprises along the way
to patience
to found mantras
to bubbling ideas left and right
in the midst of inspiration

gratitude to
2012 consciousness
to 13 moon being
red magnetic moon being
lessons and teachings

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in a few weeks
at the end of this month
the closing of a "mini" cycle will occur
papers will be signed
and the energy upheld
and maintained for the past
few months during the summer
of 2006 will be released...

effort
and then release

in an easy and relaxed manner
in a healthy and positive way
in its own perfect time
for the highest good of all concerned

peace and blessings
meeting
sri ganesha again
in the most surprising of places
to maha kali
to maha laxmi
to animal friends
the ten thousand arms and eyes
of the bodhisattva avalokiteshvara
the medicine buddha
the energy of prayer, thay
mother teresa
gregg braden
and all the buddhas
and bodhisattvas
god, goddesses, guides
and ancestors who
live with us
in moment
and each breathe
of this life

release
summer of 2006
release

with
ease
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a bow
gratefulness
thankfulness
prayerfulness

a bow
gratefulness
thankfulness
prayerfulness

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a life lift!

2006-08-09T14:49:00.000-07:00

TAURUS
(April 20 - May 20)

You work diligently. You give it all you have got. You do this for what?
The end goal I presume? How much of the process are you motivated by? In the end, we will never really get it all done, there will always be more to do and more yet to learn and so the soul circles back because more desires exist.

This week you are ready to change up how you experience your life process. You are ready to bring more meaning to the simple moments, not living for the outcome but living for and loving the process. Change the name of your game. Bring innovation to your days. Change your space, change the backdrop and prepare for a life lift.

http://www.madalynaslan.com/horoscope_weekly.html

returnings

2006-08-06T10:44:00.000-07:00

returnings
rememberings
comings and goings

returnings
rememberings
journeyings

returnings
rememberings
understandings

returnings
rememberings
discoverings

returnings
rememberings
openings

returnings
rememberings
receivings

returnings
rememberings
acceptings

returnings
rememberings
blessings

returnings
rememberings
becomings

returnings
rememberings
gatherings

returnings
rememberings
movings

returnings
rememberings
riskings

returnings
rememberings
extendings

returnings
rememberings
reflectings

returnings
rememberings
manifestings

returnings
rememberings
BEING

letter

2006-08-03T19:37:00.000-07:00

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the gift of summertime friend
the gift of the stars / astrologie
13 moon consciousness
friends who feel the dimensions of us
energetically, vibrationally, skillfully, psychically
soulfully :-)
friends along the path...sangha
as wide and far reaching
as varied and beautiful
in all the ways that the wisdom
of the universe is embodied
and realized in us as human beings
on this planet...
that wondrousness also exists
as part of our human, local, global, cosmic community
the part of us that is in touch
and deeply connected to other larger, deeper
parts of us
our other home
the friends along the path who support
that powerful journey back into Memory
into Fullness of Being
into what is Buddhaful
Powerful
Wonderful
each moment
when we reflect
on ourselves and our lives
this moment
is another moment we gift ourselves
birth ourselves
call upon ourselves into being
to allow the UNIVERSE
SOUL CONSCIOUSNESS
BUDDHANATURE to speak to us
breathe through us
awaken in us
each moment
when we release
to know ourselves differently
deeply and truthfully
we free our being to become
not necessarily "more" because we are now less
but simply MORE OF WHAT IS ALREADY THERE TO BEGIN WITH

dear clearMOONchild friend
i wish you
i wish you
i wish you
deeply
transformative
passages ways
as you continue
to explore the depths
of YOU
may your journey be
blessed with bodhisattvas
teachers, friends and guides along the path
ancestral wisdom-bearers
and blessers
blessings
of friendship
isanghmahal
teachings and fellow
travellers
abound
in this dimension
as you continue
on this courageous
journey to return HOME
to become AT ONE
to AWAKEN
to DEEPEN
to simply
BE
AGAIN
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take good care

patience dear taurus

2006-08-03T07:10:00.000-07:00

TAURUS
(April 20 - May 20)

Finding the right words to express accurately how you have been feeling has been close to impossible. This makes communicating a challenge. The way your world ‘was wired’ is now being officially re-wired because your soul cannot operate in the way it was any longer. The fear of such re-wiring is always much worse than the new reality. In fact it won’t take long for you to love your new reality.

Your ruler, Venus, is now travelling side by side with Communicator Mercury. They are working together to get a very important point across and because of this you are about to be very successful at driving a meaningful message home.

http://www.madalynaslan.com/horoscope_weekly.html

CAINER.COM DAILIES
'Dear Jonathan, you keep suggesting that we Taureans are nearly at the end of an era and an exciting new phase of our lives is about to begin. You don't say when. How much longer must I hang on by my fingernails, waiting for better times?' I found this letter in my e-mail today and I must reply, to the writer... and to all Taureans who feel as if something is taking ages to alter. Today is Thursday. By one week on Friday, you'll have seen a convincing reassuring sign of lasting improvement!

in an easy and relaxed manner

in an healthy and positive way

in its own perfect time

for the highest good of all concerned

Red Magnetic Moon New Year (July 26, 2006 to July 25, 2007)

2006-07-26T21:00:00.000-07:00

purify to unify...

My experience is that it is a willingness to be burned in the fire of complete vulnerability until the fictitious self is seen as a story. Then the unity of all of life can be revealed as who you’ve truly always been. This world of form does come from the mind. Indeed, this whole creation is a manifestation of mind. The mind projects, while the heart unifies. Watch your own mind and see. Once there is a seeing of the true reality then even your own mind can be watched and liberated as the witnessing presence becomes the dominant focus. Then it is truly a movie, a dream, and all of us are dream characters acting out our impersonal parts.

It is all so beautiful and we are all so blessed

"Love is my master, life is my teacher, the world is my playground"

Intiana
www.13moon.com

Red Magnetic Moon

Tone 1: Magnetic - Unity

Red Moon is your Conscious Self - who you are and who you are becoming.

Red Moon is the cosmic seed of awakened awareness. Consume it like a fruit, and let it blossom within you. You are on the quest of self-remembrance, of Godseed. If you work with the energy of Red Moon with clear awareness and attention, an awakened state of remembrance will naturally blossom within you. Remembrance means having direct access to your expanded presence through an intrinsic perception of unity. Remembrance is your recognition of the larger pattern and your connection to it, often facilitated through dreams, art, music, colors and creative pursuits. With focused attention, meditate on Red Moon and you will receive help with self-remembrance.

Red Moon is also a beacon or transmitting station. As you open to self-remembrance, you become a beacon and receiver for cosmic consciousness. This communication creates the gradual opening of the third eye, the eye within the mononlith of self. As this eye opens and your communication becomes more refined, you will notice more signs, signals and understanding coming to you. These are all for your growth and evolution - a feedback system from which you can gain insight about your journey.

The number for Red Moon is 9, which symbolizes the recurrence of great cycles. An example of such recurrence is the periodic return of master teachers to help awaken human beings on Earth. Nine is the number of Quetzalcoatl, Buddha, and Christ. Red Moon is a symbol for great teachers who have come to translate universal wisdom to humanity, to embody the awakened state of consciousness that is accessible to all. Such teachers serve as a connection to the Divine and hold the promise of full self-mastery.

Take off the veil of forgetfulness. Become the beacon of awakened awareness. As you open to self-remembrance, you will freely receive divine guidance. Be with others who support your fullest expression.

Red Moon is also your Higher Self & Guide. (you are guided by your own power doubled)

The harmonic wisdom embodied in Red Moon is modulation, the harmonious passage from one key to another. This is experienced as movement and change through the natural laws of growth. Red Moon represents a passage into a new key or mode. To shift keys or tonality in your life, move with and trust your own process. Even the dissonance created by resistance to change shows you where you have work to do.

Eventually, living in a new key or tonality creates a harmonious shift that naturally moves you to another resonance. Through experiencing this higher resonance, a communication is set up with the next octave of archetypal energy. In a literal way, then, Red Moon is like a walkie-talkie, a communication device for the higher resonances. When this communication becomes fully realized, it is possible to communicate in the resonance of Yellow Warrior. Yellow Warrior is exactly one octave, or eight archetypes up from Red Moon, representing communication with cosmic consciousness.

The musical descriptors of Red Moon are chiaro, meaning "clear and pure," and rubato, meaning "dwelling upon." As each lesson is embraced, the next level of resonance can be more purely sounded. Being a clear channel for the light assists you in sounding the more expanded resonances. As to rubato, it is usually necessary to dwell on any spiritual practice before reliable results are achieved. Red Moon represents the willingness to dedicate whatever time it takes to practice certain spiritual disciplines until they become a part of you.

Yellow Human is your Subconscious Self and Hidden Helper.

Yellow Human is the grail, the golden fleece, the philosopher's stone, the alchemical transmutation that turns baser materials into gold. It is the cornucopia, the paradox of emptiness and harvest, the still place that lies open and fallow, receiving the gifts.

Yellow Human offers you the gift of beginner's mind in the fullness of union. Be receptive. Yellow Human is preparing your circuits for transformation. Become empty, that your thirst may be quenched by the bounteous gifts poured from the chalice of the spiralling galaxies. Open and receive all that Yellow Human offers in the chalice of your own body.

Eb asks you to strengthen and clear your physical vessel in order to prepare for the expanded energies of higher mind. Your chalice of self is being purified through vibrational adjustments in the brain/body system. With this quickening, adjustments are made and your circuits of consciousness are naturally transformed. Often this process is accompanied by the sensation of being altered or "rewired". Higher centers of the brain and the light-sensitive pineal and pituitary glands are being activated to contain more light. This penetration brings you to a critical threshold, creating enormous change at the cellular level. It also activates soul memories and expands your concepts of reality.

With this expanded consciousness, your brain/body system is being cleared and fine-tuned so that you can create a sluiceway for the activation and acceleration of cosmic consciousness. This penetration of frequencies and its accompanying quickening is like upgrading the 'hard drive' of your biocomputer and activating the 'hidden chip,' the unused parts of your brain.

This is the foundation and awakening of your light body, a body crafted from the expansion of interstellar light within every cell. This body exists in and out of time and space and is able to experience and communicate freely with other dimensions and times. This is the resonant body within those whom Jose Arguelles calls the Servant-Warriors: "those humans who fully realize the dream light body within the physical body and understand the circuitry of the human organism - who use the light body to navigate the electromagnetic waters which we call the universe."

The development of the light body involves strong interaction between Spirit and self as you prepare for entrance into the expanded chalice of Essence Self. In preparing this vessel, you enter into the rites of passage inherent to cosmic consciousness, and such rites eventually burst any false containers of self that cannot encompass the expanding chalice.

In meditation, expand to include all that you are. Then bring that feeling of expansion back into your physical self. In this process, you create a complex stability, opening a chalice of self that is fully rooted in human form. With this expansion, you are freed to explore within a new center that, paradoxically, seems to have to center. Yellow Human reveals the secret of being essence within form, everywhere and nowhere, "nothing" but present in all things.

The metaphor of the ever-expanding chalice is a powerful spiritual tool. This chalice represents the eternal container of light, ever filled with spirit's fire and nourishment. It is the metaphor that represents the form in which your full potential can manifest. Each stage in your journey feels like the final one, but each stage then opens to an expanded form, releasing you into the next stage of consciousness.

All the gifts of the macrocosm pour out of the universal cornucopia. With an open heart, empty yourself to be filled with the fruits of your true desire. Through the temple of your body, lift the chalice of your expanded self and declare that it is filled with truth and clarity. Feel the ecstatic union with your full potential as a human being.

Meditate on the cornucopia with you at its center. Lift the chalice of your self-generated energy vortex to greet the vortex that will descend from above. As an open vessel, prepare a place to receive Yellow Human's gifts. When you flow in unconditional love, all the fruits of the universe rush toward you for benediction.

Bathe in love's essence as a child splashing in a pool on a hot day. Connect with others in joyous union. Use the broom of Yellow Human to sweep your day clear of past experiences and the issues and obstacles of small mind. In the spirit of Yellow Human function on all frequencies and power bands. Your cup is filled with the nectar of sacramental union. Be fulfilled by the great harvest of love!

Blue Storm represents your Challenge and Gift.

With maturity and awareness this challenge will turn into a Focus. This is what you desire to learn in this lifetime.

In the shadow of Cauac are held issues of spiritual separation. Cauac bridges the time and space between physical and nonphysical realities. This space can be viewed as a wall or veil between you and the Creator. The intensity of your desire to go 'home' is often met with equal force from the collective belief in separation. At times, you may even experience a sense of despair and helplessness over the apparent gap between you and Spirit.

Take courage - you will move through the wall! During this process, you may encounter intense feelings related to the original trauma of separation from Source. But equally intense feelings will take you through the wall to sacred reunion on the other side. On this journey, you will meet and deal with the charge of that part of your power that has not been freed into love. And in your yearning for your spiritual home, you will be assisted by ascended beings and masters whose purpose is to aid in your return.

A prominent shadow of Cauac is the fear of loss, the fear that by jumping into the unknown, you will lose everything: companions, loved ones, attachments, possessions - perhaps even your body or mind. Cauac is the crucible of revolution. This transformation is so inclusive that you may be reluctant to take risks for fear of the depth of change. You may even have feelings of despair or giving up. Though it can appear frightening, this process is actually there to serve you - to magnify your feelings until you address them, using them as fuel to propel you through the transformational barrier itself.

Another shadow of Cauac falls on those who seek to escape or transcend earthly reality through addictions of all kinds - to substances, fears, self-doubts, material comforts, relationships, sexual obsessions, and work, among others. Addictions are like incomplete rites of passage, where compulsive behaviour creates a feeling of being trapped rather than being free. They may offer the appearance of freedom, but only spiritual connection can offer true freedom. On the other hand, the desire from a new or altered state can become an indirect spiritual path leading to transcendence. Thus the escape is incomplete, yet it eventually brings one to the opportunity of a profound transformation.

Any illusions you may have about self are magnified intensely through the lens of Cauac.

When you experience separation from Spirit's love, questions of Essence Self and issues of archetypal self-worth arise. This separation springs from a basic denial of your oneness with Spirit. Denial can be seen as consciously or unconsciously holding something away from yourself, and it creates an energy loss and a feeling of disconnection from your potential.

However, that which feels like it has been lost returns when you forgive yourself. Accept your human process, freeing the power and potential that has been locked in your fear-based emotions. Accept your behaviours as part of your learning experience. Let go of the rigid belief systems and judgements that hold denial in place. FORGIVE MYSELF.

Acceptance is the allowance that creates freedom, and separation is the guide to union. You may tend to deny your feelings and your growth process, thinking that you are above them or have already worked through them. This denial amplifies and intensifies the feelings until they come into awareness. Know that the intensity of your process is also healing your cellular and genetic memory, as well as the collective issues of humanity and the planet. Simply accept the truth of your experience, no matter how intense or difficult it may seem. Embrace everything that happens to you and you will regain all the vital energy that can be applied to the purposes of evolution.

White Dog is your Compliment - something that comes naturally to you.

One of the gifts of White Dog is the calling in and recognition of other companions of destiny. Other beings with the same longing are waiting to meet and acknowledge you - beings who can see you as you authentically are. When you have truly been seen, you feel empowered, and remembrance of a shared sacred trust is ignited. This is a natural process, divinely designed for recognition through vibrational affinity, freed from personal expectations.

White Dog can be seen as an access point for developing relationships with guides, totems, allies and guardians. There are many ways to work with these spiritual guides, including guided visualizations, shamanic journeys, and meditation. A useful construct is viewing them as aspects of yourself, part of your life stream that is asking to be integrated. Remember, there is no 'other'. In this grand adventure, you are being asked to embody all that you are.

Profound insights are garnered through shared purpose and relationship with others who are willing to be in their truth and integrity about the light and shadow aspects they perceive in themselves.

Similarly, intimate relationships can be viewed as unique opportunities to bring forward in each other deep emotional patterns to be transformed. In this case, those you have drawn to you hold the ability to assist you in your own integration as well. There are no mistakes. Be willing to look deeply into the truth held within any relationship. The expression of intimacy is a gift of love; the lack of it may be a symptom asking for honest communication and healing. It may also be guiding you to reevaluate your relationship and the purpose it is serving.

White Dog signals a breakthrough in your life: new beginnings, new perceptions, new allies and friends. As you express more authentically who you are, you draw your true family closer to you. With your guides and companions, you have the ability to manifest your inspired visions and dreams. Recognize the eyes and hearts that spark the remembrance of a sacred trust.

The harmonic wisdom of White Dog is affinity, the attraction of like vibration or substances for one another. Spiritual affinity is not limited to family kinship - it is part of the natural affinity between companions of destiny. Such companions of are drawn together by the same aligned force that draws iron filings to a magnet. Companions of destiny are drawn together to do work that is naturally harmonious.

On the surface at times, it may seem that you have little in common with these companions, yet the attraction remains. This is because Essence Selves are often committed to work together long before they meet in the physical world. This is a natural process of affinity, rather than a process motivated from personal desire. Follow this guidance into your unfoldment within the larger pattern.

Your Tone is Tone 1 - Magnetic

Unconditional love, the one heart, indivisible essence, core vibration, new beginnings, chalice of the infinite, All That Is.

One is the ray of unity with self and Source. Call forth the resonance of your true vibration. Feel the pulse of this ecstatic frequency of the One. You are being offered profound awakenings and the exquisite radiance of unconditional love. This is a time of new beginnings in your life. Be active in your individual expression, committed to the growth of your Essence Self.

You contain the paradox of the "separate" self and unity with the One. You are simultaneously the primal point of beginning and the crowing culmination. You are the initiator. You are the one who opens the way. You may feel alone or separated from Source. If so, stand in the unity of your Essence Self and focus on the reality of the one heart. You are the wisdom you seek!

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These excerpts were taken from the book, "The Mayan Oracle - Return Path to the Stars" by Ariel Spilsbury & Michael Bryner - Click here to email Ariel and purchase a signed copy!

to-dos (homebuying)

2006-07-26T11:50:00.000-07:00

meetings and finger crossings
for this big system of exchange
to move smoothly forward

1) meeting re: property disclosures
2) inspection of home
3) appraisal inspection of home
4) more signatures of papers and documents
5) collecting / submitting documents to be completed
6) fire insurance policy search
7) balancing family feedback
8) visualizing the "move"
9) staying present to the moment at hand
10) breathing...remembering to breathe...

:-)

remembering white electric mirror

2006-07-24T22:09:00.000-07:00

Tonight is a New Moon in Leo evening
Tomorrow, July 25th, is Day Out of Time 2006 - a celebration of freedom, release, peace, culture and the new consciousness evermore being integrated, celebrated and dedicated to everyday living.

Plus, it is also being celebrated as Love / Thanks Water Day!

planetary
peace culture
reigns inside
and outside
inward / onward
.
.
.

White Electric Mirror

I activate in order to reflect,
Bonding order.
I seal the matrix of endlessness
With the electric tone of service.
I am guided by the power of spirit.

Yellow Southern Castle of Giving – Court of intelligence, power of ascending

White Root Race - The refiners. Key note: spirit

Earth family: Blue Night, Yellow Star, Red Skywalker, White Mirror

SignalKin – Unravel the mystery Solar-plexus receive

Sky Clan - Blue Chromatic

Tone: 3, Note: D, Name: Electric, Function: Activation

You were born in the Wavespell of Yellow Warrior in the Year Blue Storm
White Mirror – Reflects Endlessness *

When operating in the light of your energy, the positive aspects are: Clarity, Discrimination, Facing the shadow, Integration of Paradox, Spiritual Warriorship, Sword of Truth, Change, Shatter Illusion
Shadows

When operating in the shadow of your energy, typical symptoms are: Judgement, self doubt, separation; illusion. Paradox. Hall of mirrors.
Transformation

To come out of the shadow: Be willing to look in the mirror, Face your shadow. Look at the mirrors being provided by other people and life situations as gifts. Use discrimination, wield the sword of truth in your life to release and forgive yourself and others. Free yourself from illusion.

new moon in leo

2006-07-24T10:31:00.000-07:00

new moon in leo
july 24, 2006
heart centered
living and being
sharing and expressing
release old forms of faith
and beliefs that constrict
my ability to be free
open loving giving and receiving
within this moment
accept my heartbeat
accept my rhythm and song
the way i reach out
and give love

fearless generosity
awakening
from the heart center
freedom
awakening
from the heart center

Be
Be
Be

pamilya shiva :-)

2006-07-23T19:59:00.000-07:00

this summer
onelovetrust
aka blue haired shiva friend
and i have been exploring
and having fun befriending
energies gods goddesses
from the hindu spiritual imaginary

ganesha
kali
laxmi
shiva...

friends teachers
protectors and guides
along the path...

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.
.

Shiva is the destroyer of the world, following Brahma the creator and Vishnu the preserver, after which Brahma again creates the world and so on. Shiva is responsible for change both in the form of death and destruction and in the positive sense of the shedding of old habits. In Satyam, Shivam, Sundaram or Truth, Goodness and Beauty, Shiva also represents the most essential goodness.

Shiva is the god of the yogis, self-controlled and celibate, while at the same time a lover of his spouse (shakti). Shiva's first wife was Sati and his second wife was Parvati, also known as Uma, Gauri, Durga, Kali and Shakti. His sons are Ganesha and Kartikeya. Shiva lives on Mount Kailasa in the Himalayas.

http://www.sanatansociety.org/hindu_gods_and_goddesses/shiva.htm

next phase...

2006-07-22T17:25:00.000-07:00

gratitude
happiness
amazement
blessings
.
.
.
my offer on the home
i've been "eyeing"
eye lovin'
the generosity
of the sellers
awakened
and my offer was accepted!
.
.
.
i am now in the
loan finalization
appraisal
approval
inspection process
and all that good stuff
.
.
.
prayers for a smooth
journey into escrow
closing day world
here in homeownership land
where big loans and
monthly mortgage payments
is the daily language
of this soon to be
tryna be young adult life
that i...
i...
i...
i'm just gonna
keep praying
that i know
.
.
.

offer ii

2006-07-14T10:41:00.000-07:00

offering
received a "counter"offer
to which i cannot meet
at this point in time
so i am searching for
other financing options
as well as releasing the
energy of the home
as i connected to it

if it works out later
or sooner
learning how
patience
timeliness
effort
and non-doing
all exist in this moment

an old friend
who herself bought a home
last year reminded me
of the big idea we learned
back in the dayz

homebuying leads to
intergenerational transfer of wealth

wealth states
abundance consciousness
what is that
where is that
how is that
for me as i
move through
move along this
period of my life

i am happy
and i am free

am i happy?
am i free?

where do i dwell?
offer / counteroffer

no coming / no going
no doing / just being

:-)

poc mindfulness gathering this weekend!
yes to sangha!!!

a small fieldtrip for me today?
breathing
knowing
i am alive
.
.
.

offering this week

2006-07-10T17:39:00.000-07:00

literally speaking
putting in an offer
on a home this week
in the next few days
and i am gathering myself
right now and feeling the depth
and breadth of this action
hearing what others have to say
but more importantly
knowing for myself what this
means to me
:-)
can't please everyone
so in that sense
then make sure
make certain
definitely
undeniably
unerringly
make myself happy
cuz if i can't
or if i don't
when who will
right?
who will...

my offering to myself
this week
in addition the sums
of money that
are being exchanged
transferred
checked
held
my true offering to myself
the integrity of my decision
standing and representing
the act of honoring and respecting myself
standing in the midst of my action
and owning all of it
reflecting to myself
all of who i have been
throughout this process
.
.
.
acting in such a way
to know how to bring
myself the happiness that is
my birthright
.
.
.
this is my offering to myself
on this full moon evening
a walk to the oceans
to say thanks to the moonshine
and the energies and friends
who are supporting me
to make this a reality
.
.
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peace
peace
peace
.
.
.
breath
.
.
.
in an easy and relaxed manner
in a healthy and positive way
in its own perfect time
for the highest good of all concerned
.
.
.

house hunt numerology

2006-07-07T16:42:00.000-07:00

7 Address.
The most unconventional address in all respects. Good for single adults; alone but not lonely. Inspires spiritual growth but abhors conventional organized religion. Inspires depth of thought, reading, contemplation and perhaps even meditation. Serious and often pushing one to become a bit more introvert, this address is my personal favorite. Just as only an artist knows the bliss of “breaking through” to create a truly great piece, only the seven knows the ecstasy of a truly spiritual realization. If all churches, mosques, and synagogues were located at “number 7 addresses” the world would be a better place. Those who like to keep things light and superficial tend to find little happiness in this location.

Strengthen the positive influence of this address with: Few colors, preferably white or shades of white. Austere, minimal furniture. Simple but high quality. Avoid clutter. Be the opposite of a pack rat – eliminate what you don’t need.

queerness and kali

2006-07-06T13:37:00.000-07:00

skimmed a book by gayatri gopinath, a professor of mines back during undergrad ucsd days. i remember taking a class of her called the queer diaspora. it was very good, small groups, discussions and it was such an awakening when she brought up the term, IMPOSSIBLE SUBJECTS and from there, i just keep turning and turning in my seat about where she was coming from.

anyways, i wouldn't even try to "summarize" all of what her text is saying...i sometimes read academic, dense texts to search out for new words (my secret), but today, i found something cool, coincidental and all that good stuff.

i smiled when i read that in london, there is a south asian queer club called...
CLUB
.
.
.
KALI!!!

hahahahahaha!

KALI
friend on the path
.
.
.
queerness
as possibility
the impossibility
of my ventures into the dharma
in all the ways that my mind creates
misperceptions, mental formations and wrong thinking
queerness as a perspective allows
for things to come together
same same buddhanature
dharma in the diaspora
here iB
.
.
.
whateverz

clubKALI
believe that!

for the good of all concerned...

2006-07-04T13:24:00.000-07:00

When our gain is someone else's loss, it is not very much of an attainment. The best deals are always those in which everyone comes out a winner. We all know this, but it's tempting to forget it, especially when we can see a quick and convenient way to improve our own outlook at someone else's expense. You could now benefit from another's misfortune. You may not need to do anything more than just keep quiet, In the long run, though, you'll be better off doing the right thing.

affirmation...

2006-07-04T13:07:00.000-07:00

in an easy and relaxed manner
in a healthy and positive way
in its own perfect time
for the highest good of all concerned
.
.
.
venturing forward
leap and the net will appear
faith and consciousness
the best i can
into the realm
of househunting
and hopefully
homeownership
summertime is
the best time for
me to hold all the details
and grand decisions
of this big shift into
_________________
maturity
stability
or insanity!!!
30 year committment
gooooodness
i don't think i've
ever committed to
anything close to that
before...
.
.
.
stuff to write about building up
notes in an notebook
or a conversation with a friend
soon, when the final release occurs
and i "move in!"
then i can relax even more
and recall the moments
and enlightenments
tragedies and miscommunications
which i will come to remember
as the summer i found the
place for me to call my other
HOME
.
.
.

number 1 GO!

2006-06-14T07:41:00.000-07:00

Your Total is 1

1 Address.
This address inspires independence, ambition, drive and leadership, and is well suited for a mature family or individual for who career or business are a high priority. Artists or self-employed people with a home-office at this address tend to do well. Dislikes happy-go-lucky or unmotivated people. Strengthens character. Good location for anyone seeking to improve self-discipline and self-confidence. Not so good for single adults looking for a partner.

Strengthen the positive influence of this address with: Strong, bright, even primal colors. Don’t clutter the house with furniture. Keep plenty of open space. Keep window coverings to a minimum. Plants and aquariums.
http://decoz.com/FindAddress.php

The Numerology of House Numbers
House Number 1

House Number 1 creates the self reliant, efficient and independent person. People who live in a 1 house will find their ambition, courage and passion will be magnified. The number 1 also helps to manifest our true dreams and desires. When living in a house numbered 1 remember to watch your thoughts and feelings as we can create our own positive or negative situations. Focus positively on your goals and dreams and watch them come true! However, be aware of projecting a snobby, cold hearted personality when living in this house. All the courage and passion for achieving your goals may be taken incorrectly by family, friends and neighbours.

Positive Colour Suggestions: Yellow, Gold, and Orange.
http://www.heavenlyideas.com/Current-Health-Articles/Numerology/numerology.html

The 1 House:
This is a house where you would feel motivated. You would function as an independent person here. This is a great house for someone who lives alone. In this house, you feel comfortable in taking the lead on all things and will always have the energy to initiate all kinds of beginnings here. You definitely would be no "shrinking violet" in this abode! This house shines and the owner could collect a lot of interesting types of lamps. Just be careful that while you live here, you don’t become too aggressive or overbearing or you could lose your friends.
http://home1.gte.net/darrowmp/NUMEROLOGYTIPSFORHOUSEHUNTING.htm

http://www.sanatansociety.org/vedic_astrology_and_numerology/indian_numerology_1.htm

8 ii

2006-06-11T17:05:00.000-07:00

"the number 8 is magnificent. eight as in the spider's legs....the web weaver....weaving our own fates..."
--from onelovetrust

go 8
the number of saturn
2006 saturn return
:-)

"8" numerology + haus hunting...

2006-06-11T16:49:00.000-07:00

i'm taking a break from my grading can you tell?

oooooo
ooOOooooh
2006 also comes up as "8"

OO infinence

:-)

and then, there's this...

The Number Eight:
The Manifesting, Wealth, Power, Riches, Status,
Material, Pragmatism, The Ego, Provision, Aggregation,
Dictatorship, Multiples, Business, Investment,
Employment, Appearance, Customs, Skills, Exchange,
Reality, World Transformation.

...minus all the negative expressions of this of
course, in mindfulness

and finally, check out this link (significance of "8"
in hind numerology/astrology)

http://www.sanatansociety.org/vedic_astrology_and_numerology/indian_numerology_8.htm

and one more general numerological spread
http://members.aol.com/AspireA1/index5.html

:-)
is this you universe
as saint francis
and numerologie?
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ENTERED HOUSE ADDRESS ONLY 5885
Your House Address.
The first step is to add the individual digits of your
House Address together until you have a single digit.
The letters in the street name also have a value that
is combined with the street number.

Your Total is 8

8 Address.
This address inspires stability, ambition, financial
growth, authority and uncompromising drive. This is
the ideal location for a single adult or a family with
material comfort as a high priority. Status quo and
conventional lifestyles. The 8 also inspires strength
of character and tends to improve the health of those
who live there (strengthens the body). The best
possible address for career or business oriented
people. Also good for large families.

Strengthen the positive influence of this address
with: Strong colors, especially greens and browns. Big
furniture; big couches, chairs, side tables, etc.
Large windows, open spaces, fire place.

ENTERED 5885 VISTA SAN FRANCISQUITO
House Addresses:
Your House Address.
The first step is to add the individual digits of your
House Address together until you have a single digit.
The letters in the street name also have a value that
is combined with the street number.

Your Total is 4

4 Address.
The most solid and grounded of all addresses, this
house inspires responsibility, inner strength, and
dependability. The address breathes strength,
conventionality, and moral values. Well suited for
focused, career-oriented people and/or young families
with children. Also inspires financial growth and a
responsible approach to monetary matters. Not a good
house for creative or unconventional people.

Strengthen the positive influence of this address
with: Muted, earthy colors. Heavy, robust furniture.
Solid oaks and antiques. Heavy curtains (kept open).
Wood floors.

wow! again! and again! and again!

2006-06-04T16:26:00.000-07:00

june is here
wow!
the middle of the year is here!
wow wow wow!
midyear 2006
summertime 2006
in just around the corner
without fast forwarding too much
and losing this moment
awareness of the "quickness"
of these moments
the time experienced
the goals accomplished
(i finally finished BTSA Year 2)
the new goals to visualize
and infuse with attention
LIFE
LIVING LIFE
SHOWING GRATITUDE
BY LIVING AND BEING
june 2006
onward
and jumping into the
pool of summertime awareness
and happiness
activity
happily
being
.
.
.
last time
i drove down to borders
surrounded by san diego's
summertime night
a warmth
and seeming
endless of night
that i feel
a bit more
over the summer
.
.
.
right now
i am spending
my late sunday afternoon
here at chicano perk (national city)
:-)
appreciating this space
and the art
and the people who are passing by
getting some work done
found a visual text :-)
to show to kids
YES!!!
and enjoying a cool
iced tea passion fruit
(a bit strong in the beginning
but added some more wonderful ice
to get it just right)
.
.
.
the summer has begun
already
one more week with my students
two finals to give
one slideshow to review
grading to complete
a room to decorate
a journal to pass around
yearbooks to sign
last days to spend
in the presence of these young ones
.
.
.
i've been wanting to sit down
and write something to share with them
something about this year
or something about their future
something to share about words
something to offer in terms of their transition
friend suggested decorating the room
in celebration
that might be a way
and i'll be doing that
we'll see whatever else might
transpire as the closing
ceremonies days and weeks
greet me and conclude
this time together
part "profession"
part work
part day job
part my role in society
part personal challenge
part relationship building
part mindfulness praktis
(ewwww! breathe... :-)
part happiness
part peace in the struggle
part community building
part engagement and "activism"
part responsibility
part love
.
.
.
what will it be?
what has it been?
who am i right now?
what will i communicate?
what have i communicated?
.
.
.
everything
every moment
dharma
is endless
and boundless
.
.
.
may my body, mind, speech, and actions
be of service and benefit to these
young people
growing and graduating
transitioning and transforming
to know more about their life
this life
this shared life
.
.
.
WE ARE ONE
.
.
.
Peace
Young
Peoplez
.
.
.
wow!
june 2006!
end of teaching year 2!
wow!
seriously!
wow!
wow!
wow!
THIS
IS
IT!

(thank you family, friends, and "helpers" for the love and attention, prayers, thoughts and time...for connecting and making these moments real. "isolation" is frequently an obstacle to the teaching life. gratitude to everyone who has listened and offered their presence, being there to digest and embody the daily lived reality of my life as this.)

wow!
truly
WOW!
how lucky i am
to receive your presence...
.
.
.
welcome
summertime 2006
.
.
.

wow!

2006-05-29T17:47:00.000-07:00

{ words to a friend opening to receive the blessings of the universe. may emergence meet with abundance happiness and joyful acceptance. your mandala grows buddhafully; i bow in the direction to honor your transformation and evolution. fun fun fun summer sun 2006! "a lotus blooms and a buddha appears..." }

new house, new car!
wow!
new moon
new summer solstice season
wow!
what else
is in store
in this wild
and wondrous
adventure
called the summer of 2006
on the road to 2012?
.
.
.
new relationships
new commitments
newfound power
and dimensions of being
new eyes
new perspectives
new layers unfolding
new awakenings
new emergencies
:-)
yes
new emergencies
i am experiencing
the emergence
of this awakening
part of myself
and this tells me
that i am alive
and that i am
I AM
I AM
I AM
.
.
.
the self
that embraces
accepts and allows
the self that
intuits and flows
with faithfulness
prayerfulness
and gratitude
GO GRATITUDE
the self
that opens
to the abundance
of the earth sky moon sun
the abundant blessing gifts
of this blossoming life to come
.
.
.
wow!
what is this?
should i be surprised?
its the maturation
period of a dream i've longed
desired
the part of me that
remembers surprises
are the symbols
and signals
used to communicate
when we orient
and return
to the universal way
the enlightened way
the truthful way
.
.
.
wow!
the Source
Exists
and I know it
because it flows
within me
at this moment
of transformation
this call to expand
and become
embraced
by the goodness
of LIFE
.
.
.
wow!
YES
wow!
YES
BLESS
BLESS
BLESS

generous uncle

2006-05-24T15:33:00.000-07:00

today, we laid to rest my uncle rudy
and celebrated his life and resurrection
into heaven
todays funeral celebration
was one of the most poignant
of the ones i've attended
(last year, my other uncle john also passed)
somehow
maybe because i was paying attention a bit more
or maybe because the pastor was "better"
i don't know
but somehow
i felt what was happening
and understood better
the belief systems of my catholic tradition
.
.
.
words like resurrection
and spiritual body
and baptism
were mentioned
the pastor even explained the significance
of burning incense as he circulated around
my uncle's casket
.
.
.
he spoke of the revelatory bodies
of our tradition
the scriptures
the church
and life
those were the three
areas where revelations and
wisdom arose
.
.
.
today's peace be with you sign
felt different
meant different
for me
amazing grace
bread blessed broken
eagles wings
songs i was familiar
sung and sounded different
lord hear our prayers
intentionality different
all along
i thought about the connections
to other faith traditions
to oneness with christ
resurrection
to rising up to heave
to yoga to union
to community of saints
to sangha
to communion
to oneness
at-one-ment
.
.
.
i "left" the church awhile
ago and now i can see
what i left has changed
at least in my parish
i still considered myself
a catholic
just not a church going one
and i can't say i'll be turning
over a new leaf and rushing to the next
mass service this weekend
but i do have greater appreciation for
those teacher pastors who
truly embody and teach
the Word of God
.
.
.
rest in peace uncle rudy
you are always loved and remembered

Wesak 2006 (found on planetwaves.net)

2006-05-14T09:10:00.000-07:00

openEARTH
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BUDDHA MOON WORLD
Wesak 2006
Full Moon in May

By Paloma Todd
http://www.planetwaves.net/contents/buddha_moon_world.html

May's Full Moon, called Wesak Moon, is considered the most auspicious day in the Buddhist calendar. It is the celebration of the birth, enlightenment and death of Buddha.

Spiritual energies are at peak during full moons, and in Buddhist tradition the Wesak Moon is the most potent amongst these.

The origins of this celebration are connected to agricultural notions of time based on the moon. The previous New Moon before Wesak is the Sun and Moon annual rendezvous in the earth sign of Taurus.

The image is, as the Moon gets pregnant reaching the water sign of Scorpio, so our consciousness grows expanding within us.

This is the time of the year where the soil is removed and prepared to be seeded. The concept of insemination is backed up by the mirroring of the Sun and Moon, Father and Mother, in Earth and Water, blessing man's yearly labor.

Wesak is about man's union with nature and with the stars. A celebration of the divinity behind all manifestation: the infinite intelligence that lives in all. This is the feast. Man acknowledging his place. Honoring all living beings. All participants in the cycle of life.

Buddha reached inside himself and lived the same process that lives in nature. He opened himself, was fecund by divinity, and was made a man-god.

In his honor, for centuries, in Tibet, Nepal, India and South Asia, it is a time for meditation, and chanting. A powerful time of prayer and devotion with a focus on healing and enlightenment for all beings. Generosity and kindness are practiced in service of all living things. As too are dancing, painting and dramatic reenactments.

And many rituals are performed.

In Malaysia it is good karma to release caged animals. Doves, tortoises, frogs and birds are freed from small cages on the steps of temples.

A good metaphor for us.

Opening the caged and limited view of ourselves, and letting that deep connection with divinity free to manifest in us is one of the best conscious actions we can perform during this Full Moon.

Stepping out of a cage implies remembering how to be free.

This might be frightening. The step toward regaining memory implies a dark passage.

Are we proud of our evolution? Have we honored the life that sustains us? Is humanity in harmony with Earth? Can we, the human race, take full responsibility for our actions? How do we relate to the World?

Some metaphysical teachings say that during the May's Full Moon, each year, masters of spiritual hierarchy, initiates, and aspirants gather in the valley of the Himalayas. The meeting place is called the Wesak Valley, in Tibet, and the reunion happens on both the spiritual and physical level. It is said that it is a moment of collective channeling, where spiritual forces of cosmic order descend to earth and flow through humanity's body.

A brotherhood between Christ and Buddha is the axis of this powerful collective encounter. It brings us the notion of higher forces and of cosmic help.

We can help us.

The severe wound inflicted on the Tibetan nation is just a condensed reflection of the rest of the world's reality. The wave of suffering expands itself in a world more and more at war with itself.

In the context of Tibetan history, the celebration of Wesak is an active process of identity preservation and consolidation. The makers of tradition have saved ancient rituals that connect the past, the present and the future.

Taking into account Tibet's political situation, remembering is political.

And ritual too, works within a political reality because it connects us to one another, to the larger pattern of society and to the cosmos.

Thanks to the New Age movement, the Wesak Moon has become in the past decades a global celebration. In many cities around the world collective rituals, prayers, chanting and meditations are performed.

The synergetic nature of new age allows the merging of the occident and the orient, favoring the concept of unity and global responsibility. Wesak is therefore and also, a bridge to the other. It implies the healing of the concept of otherness: the false idea of separation, within ourselves, from each other, and from Spirit.

This global invitation is to use our individual power, to work, think, act, as in as a group, for a group, as a power distributor. The invitation is to forget about ourselves in the task of containing and maintaining the energy of this sacred date for all humanity.

The word World means 'the age of man'.

Like in the figure of The World tarot Arcana, we are dancing in celebration of what we really are and always have been, surrounded by cosmic forces available to us all.

Wesak offers us the gift of continuity.

So invite yourself in. Participate in the collective dance. Get connected. In doing so you are helping humanity to step out of the cage.

You are helping the World to be free.

Happy Momma's Day!

2006-05-14T09:04:00.000-07:00

happiness
to my nanay
and all other mothers
out there - with and without children
caring and nurturing promoting growth
sharing love endlessly
giving selflessly
.
.
.
a lotus for you

Rest in Peace Uncle Rudy

2006-05-14T09:03:00.000-07:00

Remembering
memories of my uncle
big generosity
sharing the best things in life
.
.
.
you are remembered and loved
by your family, relatives, nephews and nieces
.
.
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my "soaks"

2006-05-11T20:47:00.000-07:00

personal time
"bubble baths"
minus the bubbles
epsom salt
and lavender essential oil drops
warm water
and me
:-)
my personal time
to soak release
and enjoy
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newest addition
to self care love self
time turning fully
towards this oneLIFE
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my "soaks"
is what i'mma callin'
this
after a long day at work
30 minutes soakin'
lettin'
bein'
releasin'
body aura cleansin'
ewwwww
it's been wonders!
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and suggestion
to add orange peel
next time
and i've heard milk too
soymilk that i have in the fridge!
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goodness
this could end up being delicious
:-)
but friends
this is NOT a bubble bath
it is my personal "soak" time
and that's as far as i'm gonna confess
:-)
after this stress filled week
i've been fortifying self
in order to endure...
my "soaks"
helpful
saneful
wonderful
powerful
buddhaful
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accepting how we change

2006-05-07T21:38:00.000-07:00

acceptance
destroying the boundaries
in my mind
cutting through the illusions i create
liberating my actions and my deepest thoughts
accepting my deepest aspirations
loving myself first and foremost
accepting myself and the changes
that are occurring within
loving these parts of my
changing shifting self
open to the EARTH within myself
giving birth to the world within myself
the uniqueness of what ancestries
histories and this universe has gifted me
accepting how i change
is how i give thanks
accepting how i change
is how i know i am alive
accepting how i change
is how i show i appreciate and love my life
lessen the fear
lessen the hiding
the anger
the frustration and fighting
denial goodbye old friend
acceptance
some say
radical acceptance
the winds of denial
forgetfulness
fear and ignorance
have now passed
and i continue
on this journey
with greater confidence
and knowing
THIS IS IT
YES
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accepting how i change
at this moment
is my offering to myself
and to my world
my offering to my ancestors
and to the future to be
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loving kindness (to me...)

2006-05-03T23:34:00.000-07:00

february 25, 2003
(email to old friend onelovetrust - thanks for resending and reminding me...)

loving kindness to me...

today, i am thinking about how important it is to be able
to cultivate deep loving kindness for myself. to know how
to take care of myself, to be kind to myself, to make room
for myself, to embrace myself when things are good, but
moreso, when things are bad. when things are bad, i cannot let
that strong wave of emotion carry me too far to a point
where i again feel incapable, unworthy, low, hopeless,
mediocre, rejectable---should i go on? ( :-) no but really, this
morning, i woke up and caught a glimpse of an insight about
how important it is---for my continued growth, as i
continue to dig and dig and dig some more, practicing gently
patience and understanding with myself---to be able to laugh at
my difficulties, my weakness, my
forgetfulness...befriending them and accepting them. its funny because maybe the
things that i am "striving to cultivate" are no further than
learning to love myself deeply, especially when i suffer and
feel bad. maybe the act of striving towards something is
the trick lure i cast to be able to stumble, fall,
forget---reminding me to return back to myself, to pick myself up,
dust myself off, releasing breath with laughter! loving
kindness begins with me, soothing me to grow.

in that book "wisdom of no escape", i like the part where
she speaks against fixations for change and transformation
because this too is a form of aggression on ourselves...the
need to feel like i am not already whole, able, complete.
samsara with nirvana. loving kindness is the sweet nectar
between the two. i grow in confidence that it will carry
me joyfully, supporting my /mis/adventures. loving kindness
is knowing that sometimes, or maybe even most times, its
okay to get off the freeway, rest, and then come back.
whoever said we couldn't.

the dimensions of love continue to astound and surprise me.
so many textures. expansive, pure, humble, skillful in its
gentleness, focused intent, penetrating, diffusing subtly,
infectious, smoothening the edges of my heart.

Reminders: Turning 29

2006-05-01T20:48:00.000-07:00

28 to 29
delve
into 2012
tranformations
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one thing for me to remind myself as i continue on this life journey
today being my 29th celebration of bein' on earth
i wish to remind this being within myself
in the stillness of today's reflectiveness
my own life taking place in front of me
and me in the middle of my livin'
breathin' reality
I AM ALIVE
and this life is what i create of it
SELF-LOVIN' MYSELF
HONORING MYSELF
TRUSTING MYSELF
BELIEVING IN MYSELF
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the should's and have to's and must's
have all fallen away
and what remains is this here
being within
that stills wants to play
and engage this lifetime
gift of being
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so what now
what now after going to school
what now after finding work
what now?
buy a house - what now?
get married - what now?
what now?
in this historical period 2006
less than 7 years into 2012
transitional period
what now?
of not taking myself seriously
not respecting myself and my ideas
enough to listen to myself
and live a drone life
someone else's reality which i have empowered
because of my own fear?
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turning 29
i see more clearly
that my life is mine
what happens if my full responsibility
i create
i allow
i become
i manifest
all through the power and focus
of my own consciousness
nothing less than being myself
because what's the point?
why continue waiting?
waiting for whom?
when?
we are the ones we have been waiting for...
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turning 29
i create space within myself
TO KNOW
that i am alive
and i know i am alive
because i freely
acknowledge my thoughts
and act upon them
i sign my own permission slip
because i am free
i have freed myself
to respect and love myself
listening to myself
and living my being from that place
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woooooooooohhh!
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peace and blessings to onelovetrust
on her interview tomorrow
for a wonderful powerful buddhaful position
at our local university
service-learning position
transforming education through service
the grand transformation of all
:-)
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may 1st action / no buying, no selling

2006-05-01T16:00:00.000-07:00

peace
well i'm in a bind right now
should i buy?
need to get some socks for a friend
how about if i buy socks
at the local korean owned shirt factory store
down the ways here
or at the price breakers at national city?

buying from one immigrant to another
is that cool today?
well, we'll see if they are even open i guess...
i initially thought about going to target
much closer
but then i said oh, wait
no buying
especially not there right
so, now, what...

Twenty-Four Brand New Hours To Live

2006-05-01T04:46:00.000-07:00

Breathing in, here I am
Breathing out, this is it
:-)
Totality
and Completeness
Nonfear
Wisdom-Action
An attitude of plenitude
OpenEARTH
Abundant Birth
Friendly Universal
Masterfully Intelligent Earth
What is lacking
what does not work
what remains unfinished and incomplete
I AM RESPONSIBLE
my new mantra of possibility
I AM RESPONSIBLE
for the conditions and experiences
which will arise
and become "Year 29"
of this lifetime
what i imagine it to be
how i experience it to be
I AM RESPONSIBLE
Saturn Return in Leo
I AM RESPONSIBLE
Work things, financial things
love relationship things
health body mind things
I AM RESPONSIBLE
Fearlessness
Joyfulness
Gratitude
Compassionate/ness
I AM RESPONSIBLE
to feel alive
to live and thrive
to concretize
2012 manifest realize
I AM RESPONSIBLE
in mindfulness
i hold myself
to being myself
I AM RESPONSIBLE
for living this
with complete awareness
awakening
opening
blossoming
yes
yes
yes
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Peace and Power
International Worker's Day 2006
Respect for Immigrant Workers' Rights
Respect all Peoples Laboring and Contributing to the World
Honestly and With Dignity
We are the people of this Earth
We are the people of this Land
PEACE TO ALL
May the actions, demonstrations, prayers and intentions for immigrant workers in this country be heard, felt and realized with open understanding by those who create laws. May the creations, actions, demonstrations, prayers and intentions of our communities be expressed with peace in our hearts - sangha struggle solidarity out of love as self-determination, not hate and polarization. May our hearts of understanding open to one another...
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happy openBearth day
sangha warrior-brother of the six-rayed sun
aww-spacious poet of the heart
stepping across thresholds
from 28 to 29 you delve
to 2012
seeking fearlessness
your dharma evolutionizes
flawlessness
breathfulness
we write
we be
prophetic mindfulness

happy openBearth day to you, special friend. i will carry you close to my heart on this international human rights for workers day. as millions around the world celebrate the power to work and to rest, i celebrate the gift you offer to others - the gift of heART. happiness, continuity, resilience, moonBEam

____

thanks moonBEAM
literate
liberate
OoOoooh
buddhaful
beautiful
wonderful
powerful
.
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community
togetherness
sangha
all inclusive
non-fear
we mix
remix
we've picked
one another
to be witness
to buddhaflyness
compassionate
emptiness
fearlessness
true happiness
liberation realization
intention creation
in out
busylessness
this is
it
we B
it
livin'
and breathin'
bit by
bodhisattva
bit
bit
by
bodhisattva
bit
:-)
openEARTH
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possibilities for summer 2006

2006-04-30T13:11:00.000-07:00

trainings to teach AVID next fall?
loan application approval - "house" hunting within the ridiculousness of san diego's market?
(negativity in that huh?)
taking a website building/flash animation course?
roadtrip from washington, dc to san diego?
picture taking fun / using digital cam and creating "movies"?
zapatista otra campana listening tour in tijuana?
planning english 12 curricular resources - visual texts, films, clips, sequencing, etc.?
guelaguetza festival?
use yb stipend to build "publishing" unit and collaborate with local author to "publish" book? wow! that's so exciting for me!
people of color mindfulness group - facilitation/support/participation sangha building
orient to 13 moon dreamspell calendar (july 2006)
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one thing i love about my job is the beginings and the ends. the school year opens and then it closes. there's that certainty which my taurean tendencies aligns with. security in the process. summers for teachers as i'm noticing isn't a complete free for all of 3 months of nothing. some folks teach summer school - which i'm fortunately not having to do. some teach university summer program classes - which is interesting for me. some travel yes. some take workshops, trainings, etc. to improve teaching and possibilities for next semester. i'll be doing bits of that this summer. last summer, i must've taken three classes altogether i think. busy with workshops. and a bit more this summer. gotta make it good and honestly provide a complete offering for students. that's where i'm at with my teaching. if i know i've given it a clear, honest, rich effort - then the results, however conflicted and messy - don't feel the weight of having to carry it all. anyways.
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summertime possibilities arising
and what adventures and projects
to be realized
will meet with favorable conditions
to make manifest
powerful, creative, enjoyable
transformative realities
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Saturn in Leo (Reflections by Lisa D. Miller)

2006-04-29T05:46:00.000-07:00

Source: http://astrowisdom.com/saturninleo.htm
excerpts from a larger article "Saturn in Leo"
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The Saturn in Leo years will force us to redefine personal power as a means to engendering communal empowerment, coexistence and upliftment. Starhawk refers to this kind of power as power-with. I define this evolved expression of Leo as true leadership. When we know ourselves we know our gifts and this makes us feel a tremendous responsibility to share our talents by making life better for everyone around us.

A discussion of Leo is not complete without calling up the artist. Leo rules creative self-expression. That means expression of a creative gift that is uniquely yours. There is after all only one you.

Saturn will teach us (the hard way if necessary) that it is time America's adults grew up so that America's kids can be kids again.

I wish everyone would learn to meditate rather than medicate with drugs and alcohol. It certainly would change our world for the better.

The best way to navigate Saturn in Leo is to step into your individual responsibility to actively heal the pain and problems of this world. Get out and make your voice heard for change in our energy policy, our military policy, and our economic/social policy. Don't sit back and let the fat cats in government and big business get away with their grand deceptions. It is time to fight close-minded fundamentalism in every corner of this planet. We have an uphill battle during the time of Saturn in Leo, but what Saturn does best is call us to do that which seems impossible.

Nelson Mandela on FEAR OF GREATNESS

2006-04-26T15:18:00.000-07:00

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our
deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens
us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are
you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing
small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing
enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't
feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine,
as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory
of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us,
it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do
the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our
presence automatically liberates others." Nelson Mandela

wooooooooohhhooooooooooo!

2006-04-07T21:05:00.000-07:00

spring break time
happiness for finishing
yearbook deadline today
now just waiting for proofs
and cleaning up the big workshop
mess we've created
and preparing for the end of the year!?
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in the meantime
roadtripz
with onelovetrust
en route to fort collins
to see auspiciousheart
and other friends along the path
safe trips
peace maha ganesha
the one who provides protection
safe guidance and ease
during our travels
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gratitude praktis

2006-04-02T08:05:00.000-07:00

practice is the art of learning
Mastery is the art of living
Gratitude is the art of Loving
(from gogratitude.com)

HR 4437

2006-03-28T18:27:00.000-08:00

students walked out today from school
encouraged by the group of students from neighboring school
who took to the streets
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how to channel this energy
on campus
how to channel students' motivations
and passions?
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gratitude praktis (skippin' days...)

2006-03-22T05:20:00.000-08:00

WE LOVE...NOW
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speed of nerve impulse = 136 meters per second
speed of sound = 340.29 meters per second
speed of light = 186,000 miles per second
speed of thought = will
speed of intention = discipline
speed of acceptance = grace
speed of release = compassion
speed of Love = You
speed of Gratitude = Now
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www.gogratitude.com

gratitude praktis (day 5)

2006-03-18T20:24:00.000-08:00

met with old friend friday
to discuss the possibilities
for offering mindfulness praktis
at the space which she manages
and surprise(!!!)
there was a warm reception
for the possible collaboration
sangha seed to be
for the good of the group members
attending as well as those
members how will be new and wish
to benefit from mindfulness
body mind awareness praktises
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happiness for the conditions
supporting this to come into
fruition
bring right timeliness
ease and peace in the process
of bringing something together
breathing
gratitude
yes
yes
yes
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gratitude praktis (day 4)

2006-03-17T07:35:00.000-08:00

ON GRATITUDE + LOVE (high vibrational combination)
{from gogratitude.com daily emails}
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water crystals reveal structural alterations
bent by vibration, being currently
arranged to display Now.
love beats true
within waking waters of time
called You and I.
masterfully guided through Gratitude
this Source force Will create
bodies bent on behaving with
benevolent intentions
designed
to
witness Life as waking Art.

***
imagine a wake of Gratitude, flowing across every beating
heart, re-connecting our water bodies to Love.
Emoto- grab your microscope.

***
Interview with Masaru Emoto on Gratitude:

REIKO: Have you come across a particular word or phrase in your research that you have found to be most helpful in cleaning up the natural waters of the world?

DR. EMOTO: Yes. There is a special combination that seems to be perfect for this, which is love plusthe combination of thanks and appreciation reflected in the English word gratitude. Just one of these is not enough. Love needs to be based in gratitude, and gratitude needs to be based in love. These two words together create the most important vibration. And it is even more important that we understand the value of these words.

For example, we know that water is described as H2O. If we were to look at love and gratitude as a pair, gratitude is the H and love is the O. Water is the basis that not only supports but also allows the existence of life. In my understanding of the concept of yin and yang, in the same way that there is one O and two Hs, we also need one part yang/love to two parts yin/gratitude, in order to come to a place of balance in the equation.
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gratitude praktis (day 2&3)

2006-03-16T05:10:00.000-08:00

having gratitude
for all conditions
which support my being
drawing
painting
doodling
within
and without
the shapes
and movements
a space of attraction
magnetic
manifestation
circulate breath
and energy
energize
that space within
oxygenate
activate
suffuse
with life
force
inner space
to create
this outer reality
gratitude praktis
drawing symbols
that bring consciousness
of universe to our hands
gratitude praktis
inhaling the universe
and exhaling
participation in the grand design
gratitude praktis
a simple way of living
filled with greatness of joy
abundance love and hope
globalize gratitude
globalize love
one breath
one heart
gratitude
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gratitude praktis (day 1)

2006-03-13T18:08:00.000-08:00

gratitude today
for the conditions supporting my life
the joyful, incredible, boundless dharma
the teachings and the way of life
to which i aspire
imperfectly
yet surrounded by compassion, space
and understanding
i am really grateful for this
for the friendship of those
in the sangha
their belief in me
their support of my praktis
a smile
a gentle hello
i am thankful for the friendship
of brother phap hai
who will be leaving deer park in less than a month
i feel saddened but also
inspired by his praktis
may i live with wakefulness
laughter and freshness like you brother
i will miss you and will always remember you
my dharma teacher
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i am grateful for the full moon
lunar eclipse of today
albert einstein
wonderful einstein's birthday
today
i am grateful for being alive
being healthy
for dreams which provide
guidance
service and healing
to self and others
thankfulness to my family
to my brother who cooked me some pancit
and made it just the way i liked
without even asking him
thankfulness
to his lil' ways of being an
older brother
when i act more like
a ungrateful lil' brother
thankfulness
for his understanding
and generosity
thankfulness
for the conditions and
signs everyday life
which show me
that everything's
gonna be alright
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gratitude praktis praktis

2006-03-12T20:08:00.000-08:00

beginning a 42-day :-) gratitude praktis with friend auspicious(*)heart.
visit www.gogratitude.com to sign up. it's free of course!
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today
i am thankful
for the time
spent with old friends
visiting deer park monastery
exploring ideas for poc sangha
meditation mindfulness group
and sharing about our praktis
our lives and finding
fresssh ways to share offer
extend serve even more
today i express gratitude
for the growing sense of
service-karma yoga path
that is beginning to open within me
i don't know where this is all going
what service will look like in my eyes
but i'd like to assist
i'd like to share
i'd like to give of my time
and energy to those in real need
service praktis
i am thankful for this renewal of understanding
i am thankful for the magazine given by old friend
dinner and a nice apple muffin
shared stories
talks about writing, poetry, teaching
dharma friends along the path
i am grateful for chance encounters with friends
who i haven't seen in a long time
to see her and her new baby along with family
i am happy for this
i am happy for my health
for the ability to share in building
community
in creating the conditions for
sangha to exist and be experienced by others
i am grateful for the dharma
now as i experience it
now as i learn and grow from it
now as i reflect on it
i am grateful for poetry shared
and fun projects to be!
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weekend

2006-03-12T10:11:00.000-08:00

weekend spent with old friends
hanging out
having tea together
working together
phone calls
surprise runs in
picks ups
lunch
dinner
arts and crafts
storyteling
and 2012 planning :-)
HI CLEMENTINE!
take good care
sangha friendship
healing relationships
connection
community
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rest in this
rest
B

culture strengthening work

2006-03-11T06:44:00.000-08:00

culture
strethening work
ancestries and homecomings
mixings
crossings and
consciously deep intersectings
nothing
lives outside
integration of (((B)))eing
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native genius
buddhanature
god consciousness
all my relations
interbeing
original self
inner space
meditation
connection
wisdom compassion
infinite
infinence
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infinence through finiteness

2006-03-11T05:59:00.000-08:00

infiniteness
through finite living
everything is possible
despite the limitation
happiness and ease
peace through struggle
it is attainable
there is a solution
go
yes
transformation
at the base

finally friday...

2006-03-10T16:49:00.000-08:00

peace
weekend of rest
and rejuvenation
no grading
no thinking
being
breathing
sitting
slowed down
being
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late nights, early mornings...

2006-03-09T02:46:00.000-08:00

waking up early is good
staying up late though
can't say i'm adjusted to that...
been grading and keeping odd hours
this week
can't wait for the time to pass
and re-establish former cycle
time rest work rejuvenation
napping is helping out though
but then it's a tired race to the end
of the day hoping i'll be alright
balancement?
balancement
balancement
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maybe i'll take another short nappy right now
:-) sleep well this evening friends

grading almost done...

2006-03-08T16:30:00.001-08:00

grading
almost done
thank you goodness

international women's day 2006

2006-03-08T16:30:00.000-08:00

honor gratitude and respect
to all the powerful beautiful women
in my life
as family, as friends, as mentors
teachers...

rebirth

2006-03-08T01:08:00.000-08:00

(((rebirth)))
i am not separate from you
i am not far away from you
i am the little small place within
that recognizes and knows this
awareness
awareness connection
awareness non-separation
awareness same original source
i am not separate from you
i am not separate from you
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and so
i am you
you are me
i am in you
you are in me
togetherness like this
awareness of this
true life's basis
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in the stillness and quietude
of this small mind that wants
to isolate and separate
ego self-generate
in a harmonious peaceful
environment
the mind begins to stop
grasping ceases
thinking lightens
being shines
simple clear being
shines forth
Being yes Being

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late nights...

2006-03-08T00:17:00.000-08:00

still
awake tonight
morning ritual preparations
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clearing
cutting releasing
small self stories
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today
i connect
to honor ancestors
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rebuilding sangha...

2006-03-05T16:35:00.000-08:00

peace and congratulations to professor (((jm))) for being the newest tenure tracked faculty within usd's department of ethnic studies! brother (((jm))) will not only be teaching his students skillfully, but i know, he's gonna water the roots for sangha circles of colors to be. happiness to this wonderful new development. (((jm))) will return to san diego and we gonna continue to build this buddhaful friendship together through praktis as work, brotherhood, critical consciousness, teaching, writing...
the ripening of our lives as actions during this era of global evolution and transformation. in our small ways, we praktis, we participate, we contribute. :-) celebrations brother!

creating a mandala of this life...

2006-03-04T06:52:00.000-08:00

creating a mandala of this life
with sangha sisters and brothers along the path
invoking water, fire, earth & air
ancestry and memory
praktis manifest 2012 reality
we are the ONES we have been waiting for
"write the score, take the floor"
we are the ONES we have been waiting for
CREATORS
2012 collective initiators
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GABRIELA Rolling Mobilizations NOW!

2006-03-01T13:49:00.000-08:00

RESIST - TOGETHER!
Nothing separates us. Everything unites us!

Source: http://www.gabnet.org/protestGMA1.htm

Join GABNet in demanding an end to the so-called “state of national emergency” in the Philippines

TAKE TO THE STREETS / ROLLING NATIONAL MOBILIZATION. Sustained protests until Philippine “state of national emergency” is lifted. Join an action with your local GABNet chapter.

The women’s rolling national mobilization demands: 1) that Gloria Macapagal Arroyo should step down and thus end the political turmoil in the Philippines; 2) that the proclamation of the state of national emergency be lifted; 3) that all arrested and detained members of progressive political parties and organizations be released immediately; 4) that congressional immunity against arrests of whatever form should be respected; and 5) that all censorship, raids and seizure of media cease and desist at once.

Find the chapter and mobilization near you.

SCHEDULE:
MONDAYS – GABNet Washington DC, washingtondc@gabnet.org
TUESDAYS – GABNet Seattle, seattle@gabnet.org
WEDNESDAYS – GABNet NY/NJ, nynj@gabnet.org
THURSDAYS – GABNet Chicago, chicago@gabnet.org
FRIDAYS – GABNet Los Angeles, losangeles@gabnet.org; GABNet SF/Bay Area,sfbayarea@gabnet.org
SATURDAYS – GABNet Irvine, irvine@gabnet.org
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TIMES AND LOCATIONS:

WEEK 1 :: 27 February – 5 March 2006

Monday, 27 February 2006. NEW YORK CITY. Launching of rolling national mobilization in New York City. Leafletting (10AM-2PM) and rally (5:30PM-6:30PM) in front of the Philippines Consulate, 5th Ave. and 46th St.

Tuesday, 28 February 2006. SEATTLE.
Wednesday, 1 March 2006, 12PM-2PM. NEW YORK CITY. Leaflet in front of the Philippine Consulate in Manhattan, 5th Ave. and 46th St.
Thursday, 2 March 2006. CHICAGO.
Friday, 3 March 2006. LOS ANGELES, SAN FRANCISCO.
Saturday, 4 March 2006. IRVINE.
Sunday, 5 March 2006. SAN DIEGO.

WEEK 2 :: 6-13 March 2006
Monday, 6 March 2006. WASHINGTON, DC.
Tuesday, 7 March 2006. SEATTLE.
Wednesday, 8 March 2006. NEW YORK CITY
Thursday, 9 March 2006. CHICAGO.
Friday, 10 March 2006. LOS ANGELES, SAN FRANCISCO.
Saturday, 11 March 2006. IRVINE.
Sunday, 12 March 2006. SAN DIEGO.

Support the People of the Philippines

2006-02-28T19:57:00.000-08:00

Support the online protest of Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo's declaration of a "state of emergency" in the Philippines. She is effectively returning the Philippines back to the dark days of Martial Law under Marcos--warrantless arrests, media censorship, outlawing peaceful protest--all in an attempt to keep her loosening grip on power. Upload the above image as your default photo for your profile in a show of solidarity until she is ousted through people power. To post this message to your friends' pages, copy the HTML from the BAYAN USA "OUST GMA" Online Action Page. Spread the word!!!

For news updates, visit bayanusa.org, bulatlat.com, and indymedia.

kapayapaan pilipinas

2006-02-24T20:26:00.000-08:00

peace to filipinos in the philippines
and those of us abroad
who have taken root and still remember
our homeland ancestry
"state of emergency" martial law
has been stated one again
and repression begins
declared by law
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peace to filipinos in the philippines
and those of us abroad
sending prayers energy time and
resources to those in real need
.
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here we flow...

2006-02-24T06:58:00.000-08:00

friday remix
flow abbreviated week of
teaching and learning
so we'll see what work
was completed today...
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.
and what will be in store next week

begin end week-long weekend-next week

2006-02-23T04:57:00.000-08:00

(((breathe)))
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not much time in terms of teaching days
out today, friday, then out mon/tue of next week
three days left to begin/continue with declaration
of independence unit --- feels like a big undertaking
to launch that so i've been stalling
but we'll get through it
and learn some new things about
america's founders
the document that started IT all
.
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these next ten days are gonna feel like a blurrr
they already are starting too
and the day will pass and the evening will come
and things will continue
as they always do
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.
(e)quality
(easeful)quality
(excellent)quality
(enlightened)quality
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quality of mind
what will it be?
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(((breathe)))

welcome jksmommmy

2006-02-22T05:49:00.000-08:00

welcome to http://jksmommy.blogspot.com/
jksmommy is one of my living daily inspirations. she is a middle school science teacher old friend from back in the dayz and now, she has committed her time to fully embodying her role as a mother to her lil' one. much respects to her, her husband and her family for supporting the conditions for motherhood (in this way) to blossom. during these "times", i think we all know how challenging it is to realize a healthy family...

peace to jksmommy & family and all the extended families out there puttin' it down for child development in the best of ways...

go mommies!
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cool tuesday

2006-02-21T05:40:00.000-08:00

cool tuesday morning happiness
and the sniffles to follow
keepin' warm
maintainin' health
livin' and breathin'
the path is the way
the path is endlessly joyful
when peace is sought at every step
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welcome jade leaves

2006-02-20T17:53:00.000-08:00

http://jadeleaves.blogspot.com/

sun in pisces

2006-02-19T06:30:00.000-08:00

peace father

2006-02-18T06:18:00.000-08:00

peace
my father
on your birthday
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dharma names

2006-02-16T04:48:00.000-08:00

gift of poetry and dharma names by auspicious(*)heart
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you are
soul tectonic
calm ocean heart
dharma support
meditative container
incubator timer
recognition detection
measurement of quality
litmus of ripeness
spatial astuteness
discernment of possibility
discernment of possibility
d.o.p.(e)
d.p.
deep practices of deep looking
deep appreciation of the unspoken
you are
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happiness

2006-02-14T15:43:00.000-08:00

happiness
love light life
heartful day
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friday balancement

2006-02-10T20:26:00.000-08:00

completion friday yes
freedom task diligence
accomplishment cycle
ending reward closing
begin again but in the
meantime i rest tonight
assured in my work
dedication and completion
setting the stage for other
things to come
setting the stage for
a more fruitful future
(advising yearbook!)
hahahaha - all life these past
few have centered around this
deadline lifestyle
focused production
and now i rest
hoping that the bits
of bits will be able
to propel me to a clearer
future ending spring semester
independent projects
oral histories
bookmaking
ideas ideas ideas
design conceptualization
completion
completion
completion
yes
to deadlines
and to produksyon
and to much deserved
rest and relaxation
after a long week
balancement
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balancement

2006-02-09T20:29:00.000-08:00

balancing
this work obsession
unawareness
just going and working
front-of-computer thing
just wanna get this yearbook done
deadline even if i gotta stay up thing
not planning my time properly
or working with students consciously
just wanting to complete the task
and get this outta my hair thing
.
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i'm all for getting to the core
of myself as this newbee teacher
but goodness
goodness
goodness
12 hour days
for almost two weeks now
acclimating body
to early morning rise
and late afternoon early evening
departures from campus
i don't know how healthy or
balanced or complete that is
for me to be doing all this work
too close for my own good
release from where the kids are
stop the nagging and the explicit teaching
didactic sermonizing
just B
just B
(although it's hard to sustain without the stakes
at least is my experience)
but at the moment
just B
release
release
assist through ease
release
release
asssist through ease
and balancement
of the highest order
when things are in harmony
there is no need to struggle
no lopsided living
no making up
scrambling towards the next thing
another month and a half
and then we will be complete
finish line finish
no more deadlines
exhalation point
and the ones i'll be able
to garner from now til the end
.
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100 years of Dmitri Shostakovich

2006-02-08T05:37:00.000-08:00

Russian Composer / Classical Music / Hmmm...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dmitri_Shostakovich

(((soul)))tectonics

2006-02-05T19:41:00.000-08:00

soultectonics
soul cellular level inquiry
praktis being
remembering memory
ground as breath
earth as teacher
sustenance
abundance
signlessness
resistance
inside myself
returning to myself
i know of an ancient
soul that resides within
wisdom compassion
shining being
happy and hybrid
hip hop and holistic
the seeds have been planted
from generations past
2012 living prophecy
the final cause has been cast
soultectonics
embraces the movement
beneath our feet
inside this breath
within our hearts
yes
yes
yes

busylessness

2006-02-05T08:23:00.000-08:00

busylessness
resting in the ground of my being
and breathing
working mindfully
working joyfully
and gently
all abundance resides
in this moment
of lightness and freedom
of body speech and mind
.
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buddhaful poetry

2006-02-05T06:31:00.000-08:00

soul tectonic

we listen
to intuition
we synchronize names
to our mission
we are prophecies
fulfilling promises
emerging from the
ground of our being

auspicious heart

returning home

2006-02-03T04:27:00.000-08:00

returning home
to breath
returning home
to family
returning home
to friends
returning home
again
i release
time
life
accumulated
atop my head
here
one more time
ritual
remembering
your release
ritual
remembering your freedom
inside and out
the blade cuts
cleanly
and smoothly
without
attachments
to continue
the work ahead
.
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celebrating your homecoming

february 2006

2006-01-31T18:47:00.000-08:00

hi february
breathing in
hi new lunar year
breathing out
.
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old memories

2006-01-27T02:30:00.000-08:00

old memories
reminiscing on the sweetness
of old time
writing to old friends
renewing communication
and ways of relating
changing cuz we growing
moving with life
mine and yours
being with the moment
the experience
the reality
being with the one
opening
opening
so as to form
a connection
togetherness
gentle curiosity
generosity
deep communication
with space and understanding
freedom
love without attachments
these are the condition for my happiness

end of week

2006-01-27T00:54:00.000-08:00

grades due tomorrow
semester credits earned
while some will fall
short of effort and mastery
of work
mass public education
the ripples and tides
of achievement and failure
.
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old college friend
who now works with
collegecampaign.org
will present scholarship opportunities
tomorrow with students
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carne asada fries for 16
plus jimaica drinks
for students
and deadlines next week
reporting to skool
again this weekend
to decorate some mo'
as well as get the work
done needed
to enter semester two
and the lunar new year
cycle with one solid
step in the direction
of complete work
focus
concentration
and mindfully
working
busylessly
.
.
.
doin' this beginning
newbee novice teacher
thing to the fullest
that i know
without drowning
like lasssst time :-)
students' respect
openness
and willngness
effort and questioning
makin'
it worthwhile
most
of
the
time

Being Filipino (author uncited)

2006-01-25T05:00:00.000-08:00

On Being Filipino
"Many echo the opinion that Filipinos who speak “Filipino” are more genuinely Filipino than those Filipinos, born here, whose parents have prevented them from learning their language.

Being Filipino is not a transhistorical essence but a political project of realizing collective emancipation.

It is a question of becoming Filipino on what grounds, for what reasons and principles—what is ultimately at stake? "

peace brother

2006-01-24T05:58:00.000-08:00

peace to you brother
this morning
as you awake earlier
than most of us
and return
to the cell of your being
undisturbed
and stilled
in the silent beating
of your being
.
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.
for a successful
bail reduction hearing tomorrow
and the opening of ways and paths
for your eventual acquittal
and return to honorable
peaceful loving caring
teaching life
.
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celebrations of life and relations

2006-01-22T01:16:00.000-08:00

celebrating the bein' on earthday of old friend
iB who inspired me to create this space actually
wow - and at this 30th b(earth)day celebration
the conversation of personal life arose
twice(!!!)
and all i had to say
(uninterestingly)
was that i wasn't seeing
anyone
not really in that place of meeting
anyone
just living the absorbed
life of a teacher
tryna B a teacher
learning what this form of life is
early mornings
exhausted evenings
is this my balancement?
the cycle continues each week
and the times in between i seek
refuge from the intensity
through breath praktis
stillness praktis
solitary praktis
mindfulness praktis
resting in the breath
the intimacy created
by returning home
after a week's worth of giving
returning home
remembering home
inside
.
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and as i listened tonight
i am aware at how much role
my daily living as a novice teacher
influences
structures
configures
:0)
my opportunities for meeting others
living a "more" balanced life beyond just
worklife dominating the fullness of my being
unless i make it so...
unless in this teaching thing that i've been "doing"
my doing becomes my being
integrity of self
students as mirrors of self
so will the conditions arise for
me to expand and connect with
another being in more intimate
personal "committed" ways?
breathe
.
.
.
will i create the conditions
for this in my life?
open to love
in all its forms
like the loving words of friends
from afar wondering about my
well being
caring and loving me
through their questions
from a distance?
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"if we were only as good with relationships
as we are with our work"

(r)evolution and (r)evolutionary

2006-01-21T12:18:00.000-08:00

you can kill the revolutionary
but you can't kill the revolution
the revolutionary is the revolution
the revolution is beyond the revolutionary
beyond the who's and where's and what's
the infinite streams of light
and truth
peace intelligence
creativity and freedom
that exists in each of our hearts
the revolutionary is the revolution
the revolution is bigger then the revolutionary
yes yes yes and we are confessing
that there is no one to kill
no one to hunt down
and no one to frame
no one to spy on or to take the blame
no need to waste your time
looking and analyzing strategizing and plotting
when what's in front of you
is none other than what's inside of you
the revolution is greater than the revolutionary
we are not the enemy
and you are not the enemy
and this here
is evolutionary
revolutionary
evolutionary
evolution
as revolution
rise up
raise up
hearts up
yes yes yes
because
what is meant to be
cannot be
stopped
natural order
of the highest
frequency
living karma free
this way of life
remains
the law
.
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meditation cell

2006-01-21T08:45:00.000-08:00

to my brother
B in peace
B free where you are
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meditation cell
peace brother
breathing in
calm
out
smile
my prayers
and breath
following yours
a candle burns
in the classroom
to maintain the vigil
as we await
patience
gathering strength
resting
await
justice
gathering power
resting
await
truth
gathering focus
& concentration
resting in our being
clear and light
inner freedom shines
upon your release
meditation cell
deep heartcore
cellular
level
inner work
we are with you
in your
meditation cell
the buddhas and
bodhisattvas watch
over you
through this period
.
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we B free
where we are

time as art

2006-01-19T18:56:00.000-08:00

time as art
such is 2012
13 moon calendrics
13:20 frequency
restore natural
galatical order
particularly in these
times of great shifts
and soul openings

senior finals

2006-01-19T16:53:00.000-08:00

senior students
took the multiple choice
critical reading test today
and bombed it :-(
some did alright
but the avg. out of 10
was around 5
:-( kinda sad
but then again
well the learning goes on
close reading
for understanding
praktising the skills
that are necessary
for them to know
knowledge society
inviting these young ones
to join the knowledge society
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hope their essays
tomorrow are better

movin'

2006-01-18T14:58:00.000-08:00

moving into a new classroom next week
funds from a proposition to rebuild classrooms
finally made it our way and after all the construction
these past few years, i'm moving back to my original
room - finding ways to feng shui that space or what
i might know beginning with putting things up
of some visual value, resonance, essence
onelovetrust painted me a mandala with the message
"one act of kindness is reason enough to live"
and i've got the cross-cultural center mural
that i'd like to enlarge
and other fun things i'm keeping an eye out for
a burning candle :-)
some light background music that i found
a plant or two
creating safe home space
in the classroom
a new environment
to bring energy to
a new semester
2006
we are alive
.
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with ease

2006-01-17T05:21:00.000-08:00

working
with ease
inner freedom's peace

hello january 2006

2006-01-16T13:04:00.000-08:00

here we are 2006
ending of my first semester
in several weeks
beginnings and buddings
new ways of living
and being
surprise arisings
from all direksyons
here we are
welcome
open living 2006
a year for
less pretense
less blocking
a year for
no drama
no fighting
a year of acceptance
inner maturity
of yes
and yes
and yes
no nos
(except the essential ones)
a year of receiving
acting and being
full bodied
experience
faith (shaman wanna B style)
growing roots
to live a healthy life
amongst family, friends
students and community
in 2006
we
are
alive
.
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relaxation herbs

2006-01-16T09:52:00.000-08:00

last night, purchased some kava pills and chamomile tea. finding ways to relax body and mind - especially after a long day's work...and finals week arriving soon! i'm glad i opted out of my cheap wine solution which didn't pan out although i did go and search for the one recommended. anyways, kava and chamomile + papers to grade.

pleasing
easing
releasing
into each moment
in 2006

experiments in physical/mental consumption...

tektonic soul

2006-01-14T18:46:00.000-08:00

tektonic soul
soul tektonic
we in this
we B this
on the road to 2012
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